Da Munkie!

“But It’s Not Like I Am Anyone Important…”

ANNOYING. Sigh. Why do people whine about not getting attention, and then talk about how insignificant they are to society? I am so sick of hearing it. They act as if everyone’s lives are supposed to revolve around them, their opinions, what they have to say and what they think is important…. Then comes the whining that no one cares…. Then the talk about how they are no one important. FIRST….The world does NOT revolve around you. (It revolves around me.) Haha, okay but really. Think about how many people are in this world. There are a lot. Really, it makes any single person look extremely insignificant. Your opinion is important, and you should share it, but it’s not the end of the world when you don’t get a ton of attention for it. SECOND….STOP WHINING. Whining about how no one cares about you…? By doing this, you’re going to get attention from people who only want your attention… Or annoy everyone around you. THIRD….If you really think you are worth nothing, you need to read my “Confidence” blog post….because again, you are annoying everyone around you. Not to sound cliche or anything, but everyone is worth a ton, and everyone matters. BUT….there are millions of people in the world….it can’t revolve around one person. The good news is…everyone has one or two people who care about them beyond measure… Let’s start with your mother. She has the highest opinion of you —and if she doesn’t, I am truly sorry, and am willing to adopt you. Then, there is your significant other, or the person who wants to be…. I am not talking about the creepy stalker guy that follows you around campus. If you don’t have a significant other, it’s likely there is a friend who just hasn’t told you how they feel. THEN….there is your best friend. I have talked about this before…your best friend cares enough to tell you the truth and what they really think. If you are as lucky as I am, you better thank God you have the best friend He sent into your life. Anyway, I need to get to work. I am just sick of people thinking they are the most important people in the world, then whine when they don’t get the attention they want, and then turn to saying they don’t matter. You matter. I am here, if anyone ever needs to talk… I’m good at listening. Ask my best friends… I love you guys.

Ouuuuuccchhhhh….

Oh, how I love ET. The movie. The alien guy. And his line “Ouuucchhh.” ….It reminds me of my friend Nicole. I went to school with Nicole 8th grade-the beginning of my sophomore year of high school. She and I were good friends, and she was a good friend. She always used to say that line… I never did figure out why. Nicole, if you read this, did you have a reason?

I also do not have my glasses on. This hurts my eyes, but I am not willing to walk all the way downstairs to get them so I can wear them for a few minutes while I write and then take them off to shower… Okay, I am. This is driving me CRAZY…and… “ouuucccchhh.”

MUCH better. Speaking of things that make me hurt… MY THROAT! Uuugh. It has hurt for about a week. My sinuses were fine, everything was okay, but today, my sinuses seem to hate me. *shrugs*

I had a weird dream. I don’t remember a whole lot about it, so I can’t really share it with you… But I also woke up with that content feeling… You know the one. That feeling where you just wake up and smile. I have no idea why I feel this way, as I can’t remember the details of my dreams. I would start sharing my dreams here on tumblr, BUT… A- I don’t need you inside my head, and B- You don’t want to hear the things my mind comes up with.

I should be getting in the shower now. At least my eyes don’t hurt anymore. I just got a txt. Let’s see who it’s from… Ah, a direct message from Jason. Hi Jason. I don’t have time to reply to your message, because I am blogging, sharing my thoughts, letting my mind run! (Scary thought, I know.)

Speaking of Twitter, I just got the Storm (ooh, ahh…) —It’s a nice phone, but it has it’s disadvantages, too. BUT-here’s my dilemma. Anyone with a Storm that can give me advice (aka tell me how to fix it.) … I downloaded Twitterberry (duh). It worked fine. I then had to exchange the phone for a new one because i bought one with a broken screen. (okay.) Now on the new one, I downloaded again. But it’s saying my screen name/password are invalid. I’ve checked spelling of both twice. Is it because I left Twitterberry on my old phone when I took it back? Advice, anyone?

Anyway, I need to get in the shower, as I have to be out the door in 45 minutes. I can get ready in a short amount of time. So I will catch up with you later. In the meantime, write me an email (o0omunkieo0o@gmail.com), tweet at me (@o0omunkieo0o), txt me (if you don’t have my number, chances are you aren’t getting it.), DM me or send me a letter. (Again, if you don’t have my address, chances are you aren’t getting it.)

Have an amazing day! Don’t forget to smile at someone you don’t know…You never  know what someone is going through!

<3.

J*

Jae-….ology?

I got bored, read Sam’s…Decided to write. Haha, THIS will be interesting.

Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name
followed by “ology”.

***********FOODOLOGY***************
What is your salad dressing of choice?
I normally go for ranch, but I am a very adventurous person, so I often go with something I haven’t yet tried.

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
I have a variety of favorites, because I love food. And on top of that, I am up for trying anything. Wanna go somewhere we’ve never been?

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
Guacamole or salsa.

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
I like Pepperoni, onions and blackolives. I will eat anything, though. Everything except sausage. (Personal childhood trauma linked to pizza with sausage on it. Don’t ask.)

What do you like to put on your toast?
Wow, I haven’t had toast in a LONG time. I used to do cinnamon and sugar a lot…Peanut butter and honey… mmmm…. I think I’ll go make toast now.

***********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many televisions are in your house?
2.

What color cell phone do you have?
Orange. Because I like bright colors. I’ve concluded that either has to do with my self-diagnosed ADD or the fact that if it wasn’t a bright color, I would lose it easily. (Which is also linked to ADD, I suppose.)

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Left. Cuz it’s not normal. And I like to be different. And it makes me creative. Or…cuz that’s how God made me. (I can’t do anything with my right hand to save my life. I can barely TYPE!)

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Removed… Oh! SURGERY!….Does half an inch of cartilage from each ear count?…. (No, the nickname “Munkie” did NOT start on the internet.)

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Probably a box of paper that UPS delivered at work. PAPER IS HEAVY!

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Not that I remember. Came close the time I decided to slide down the top part of the tube slide….hit the ground HARD. Ouch.

************NONSENSEOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
No. I would dread that day, I think. I live every day as if it were my last… For example, telling my loved ones I care daily, going out of my way to help others, that sorta stuff… It’s the right thing to do. I don’t care if you are annoyed with it. Kinda explains why I am so giving with my money, too. I can’t take it to heaven, NOR will I need it there. Live one day at a time.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
*giggles* I’ll keep that to myself.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Hmmm, probably. But I would be hesitant.

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
5 or 6….thousand. I am like my sister on this. :-) IN. LOVE.

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
I can’t even remember… Does getting pulled over 5 years ago count? If not…probably something when I was 15 or so. Apparently skateboarding on a public sidewalk is a crime.

Last person you talked to?
Brady. I am being anti-social again.

Last person you hugged?
….This is sad. My son. A week ago.

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
Spring. It’s so pretty and feels so good to be out of winter!

Holiday?
Hmmm…. Probably Thanksgiving. I always see all of my siblings that day.

Day of the week?
Monday….Cuz TBBT is on that day. Or Thursday, it’s wing night!

Month?
In general….August. 2008? September.

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
Always.

Mood?
Eh. I am okay.

What are you listening to?
The TV. The dryer. Someone blahing on the phone.

Watching?
You. You look good in blue. (Totally stole that from Sam.)

Worrying about?
Worrying gets you nowhere. I try not to.

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
Starbucks. (After the shower n morning stuffffffff.)

What’s the last movie you saw?
I Love You Man

Do you smile often?
It’s rare to find me NOT smiling.

Sleeping Alone Tonight?
Never alone. Technically.

***************OTHER-OLOGY*****************

1) Do you always answer your phone?
It depends on who you are. There are some people who NEVER get ignored. There are some who ALWAYS get ignored. Then there are times that I just don’t hear it.

2) Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Brady. Telling me he can’t sleep. *smiles*

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
I like my eye color.

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
This is something I am supposed to do often?

5) Do you own a digital camera?
Yeah… I need a new one.

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
I miss having fish. They relax me.

7) Favorite Christmas song(s)
There are so MANY.

 8) What’s on your wish list for your birthday?
Nothing you can buy.

9) Can you do push ups?
I CAN. Will I die? Maybe.

10) Can you do chin ups?
Probably.

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
This world is screwed.

12) Do you have any saved text?
Many. No, you cannot read them. *smiles*

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
A few….

14) Do you have an accent?

I’m told I do.

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Probably Untouched…or All I Want To Do… or Far Away.

16) Plans tonight?
B-Dubs, when Ash finally comes to life.

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Several times. 

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday.
A smoothie. Dinner. Uhmmmm…. a chai.

19) Have you ever been given roses?
I don’t think I’ve gotten flowers since…. it’s been years.

20) Current worry?
Ashley’s safety.

21) Current hate right now?
My neck. OUCH.

22) Met someone who changed your life?
You could say that. 2 people come to mind. My son means more than anything.

23) How will you bring in the New Year?
Ew, I don’t make plans that far in advance.

24) What song represents you?
Smile - Vitamin C… DEFINITELY.

25) Name three people who might complete this?
IDK…. I’m just waitin on Ash.

26) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
YES. No questions asked. So many things I would do over, better.

27) Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yep.

28) Do you have any tattoos/piercings?
Just my ear. I’ve decided on a tattoo, I just have to design it.

29) Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
Definitely.

30) Does anyone love you?
Yep. I am the luckiest woman in the world.

31) Would you be a pirate?
Do I get a hook?

32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
I only sing if the radio is on. 

33) Ever had someone sing to you?
Yes… I miss Bobby singing to me… A couple others have…. But nothing beats Bobby’s version of “Anyone Else But You”….

34) When did you last cry?
I cry all the time.

36) Do you like to cuddle?
BEST THING EVER.

37) Have you held hands with anyone today?
Negative.

38) Who was the last person you took a picture of?
It’s been a while.

39) What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
Haha, oooooh those were the days. *looks at Bru*

40) Do you believe in staying close with your ex’s/prospects?
Nah. There are very few I can talk to without it being weird/frustrating.

41) Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
Mostly new. I miss a lot of my old ones. 

42) Do you like pulpy orange juice?
I do. But whatever. Haha that reminds me of a night out. “WOW the orange juice is expensive…” … “It’s the pulp.”

43) What is something your friends make fun of you for?
Tweeting too much. But I’ve really cut down on that.

Give.

This isn’t about me. This is about you. This is not pointed at anyone specifically, but there are too many people caring only about and for themselves.

Now, the people who live where I do will not be surprised by this, because, after all, it’s normal behavior “‘round these here parts”… Things I do daily:

**Talk to strangers in line at the grocery store (or wherever I may be.)

**Smile and say hi to the random person coming through the door as I leave.

**Hold the door open for someone carrying something, be it a child or a heavy box.

**Help someone that clearly needs an extra hand.

I could go on forever, but I won’t, because again, this has nothing to do with me. I was just thinking about how nice it is to have these things done for me, and reflect on why I do these things. Have you ever talked to an elderly man who is waiting at the doctor’s office just like you are? I won’t be surprised to hear the “Siouxlanders” say “yes.” Around here, it’s a very common thing to talk to these people like you’ll see them tomorrow. I know funny story about someone who came to “Keloland” (yes, that was for you, Bru.) and was surprised when the manager of somewhere they stoppef for lunch talked to them while they were there. I reacted with “uhm…yes?”… I guess it  happens so much, I don’t see it as odd. I know it’s not like this everywhere. But, I’ve learned a lot from someone who stops in the office, stands next to me in line, etc… And some stories and words I will never forget.

My point is—STOP looking inward, look for what you can do to help around you, to make someone smile. Not expect anything back, just make someone smile. You never know what someone is going through, and a smile, hello, or 3 minute chat may be just what they need to get their day going a bit better. Honestly, I get more out of doing these things for people than they probably get out of it.

You may be surprised to see how seeing a random person’s smile brings one to your face. Your day will get better if you give of yourself. It doesn’t take money to be happy. Give, and it will be given unto you. —Luke 6:38  You get more out of giving of yourself than you ever will with buying something for someone.

Think about it.

<3.

J*

“Face like the stars that shine in the sky…

And her smile is definitely one of a kind…” -Josh Halverson, “Why”

The way I feel about my best friend. My best friend. When my best friend smiles, it’s like someone lit a candle. And we all know that I have an ADD personality and like flames… The flame dances, the smile goes as far as the eyes above it, and it’s amazing. Perfect. Makes my heart happy. And in turn, anything else on that face…makes me want to cry. I can go from happy to crying in 15 seconds. (Yes, I am comparing myself to a car.) But really. There’s nothing better than seeing that my best friend is happy and has every single desire known to that amazing mind. You could say I want to fill every want. Boy, I’d try. There’s nothing worse than seeing a wonderful person unhappy.

Friendship, true friendship, is so rare. I have many acquaintances. Many acquaintances I even care a great deal about. Friends?… Maybe. But there are very few people who I would trust with my life, fewer I’d trust with my heart, and even fewer I would give my life up so they could live. In fact, there are only two people that I would say “sure” with no doubt, no hesitation, if you were to ask me “take a bullet for them?”….I wish I could say I would give my life for every family member I have. But in reality and all truth, I would hesitate on it. But then…in the end, I would probably do it.

Who is your best friend? Really? Who has been there for you, no matter what happens, no matter where you’ve been, what you’ve done, supports you and cares about your happiness—not cuz they get anything out of it, but for real. The person who will tell you you’re making a mistake, they don’t agree, or they think you’re acting foolish, but won’t get mad, but talk to you about it without anger. There’s a difference between frustration and anger, and the difference is communication. I’m lucky to have my best friend, treasure yours.

Just a thought that got in my head. I needed to get it out, and thought you may get something out of it as well.

<3.

J*

Why I am angry at “Walmart”…

I put it in quotes because I am bitter. Anyway, I have this friend named Adam. He lives far away, and works for the anger-causing Walmart. Walmart decided to hate me last week.

Now, I do shop at Walmart, not all the time, and I prefer Target. But, preferences have nothing to do with my reason for anger.

Adam has spring break coming up soon, and was planning a trip to see my family. He is a close friend of my brother’s, and has become a close friend of mine.

He was supposed to get here on Thursday, March 12, in the evening. Making Friday, March 13, his first full day with us.

He asked for the time off. Thought everything was fine. Until he saw the schedule for this week. They scheduled him anyway, because it’s inventory season and mandatory for everyone. Lame. He asked for the time off, NOT knowing it was inventory time. So it’s not like he was trying to get out of that, it’s spring break!

Sigh. So, since Friday was supposed to be his first full day here, and Walmart caused my weekend to be filled with Adam-absence, I refuse to walk in those doors at all that day. I don’t care if I need toothpaste at 12:03 a.m. Cuz, well, I’z an angry munkie.

That put a dent in my week, so I’m gonna put a dent (a small one, but a dent is a dent…) in their bank account. Help make the dent bigger? Grrr…

Ya know what they say about angry munkies, right?… They’re vicious.

Tin Foil?

This one is for Riss.

You’ve used tin foil. I know you have. Have you ever REALLY looked at it? When you open the box, it’s all shiny. Those with ADD, this is where you say “ooooh, pretty”… Yeah, pretty? Have you ever opened the box, turned it over, saw the other side? Not so shiny. The outside looks shiny and pretty. But the inside? A bit dull. Not so pretty. Some may even say “ew.” Tin foil is also pretty thin. Oh, and did I mention that tin foil is cheap? Can’t say I’ve ever seen tin foil that one wanted to keep.

Just a thought I had. Inspired by a friend of Rissa’s-Terry.

Love you, Riss. If no one else understands this post, you will.

<3.

J*

Sick?

Okay so I wake up and still don’t feel well. Am I going to work? YUHSSS. Sigh. I turn on the computer and read that my sister wants to change the world into peanut butter.—Adopted? Sam, you make a good point…But peanut butter? Really? Couldn’t you have chosen something like Popcorn Jelly Bellys? Pear?… Or maybe PB&J… You forgot to mention that we would need more cows, to make more milk, for everyone to drink AFTER having your amazing peanut butter world…erm, I was going to say “sandwich”, but… There is no bread.

On with the reality! I am about to go to work, feeling like bleh. I am debating, coffee? BK breakfast? I am an awful human. But I need to live, too, and as we all know, the world is *not* made of peanut butter.

I am currently letting my son brush his teeth entirely by himself. He has it down pretty well, but obviously needs improvement. He’s very independant about it, though—doesn’t WANT my help. He will get there. He needs independance anyway. He ate peanut butter this morning…NO, sam, he didn’t go outside and get in the garden. We cheated. It’s in a jar.

I’m gonna finish my morning stuff and get to work. Have fun, be good, smile n keep your head up*

<3.

J*

It’s Gonna Be A Great Day!

Okay, so I’m trying to convince myself of this. Will it actually happen? We will see. Gotta see what’s on my desk when I get to work. It will likely be a large amount of things to do, as it is with every Monday. I’m glad I love my job…or Mondays would be awful…

I actually woke up quite early this  morning. And by early, I mean 6:45. I’m happy to be awake, so I can get some web-stuff done before work… My tummy hurts a little… Hmm, maybe I should make some breakfast. I probably won’t… I’m not much of a cereal person…Nor am I a toast person. Eggs, bacon… that sort of thing, sure… But I don’t have that kinda time.

I don’t have much to say this morning, as I am just trying to wake up. Maybe I will post more later. It’s gonna be a great day! (aaaand repeat.)

<3.

J.

Confidence.

Before reading this, you need to know that this is an email I sent to a friend. He, at the time, had very little confidence and wasn’t a whole lot of fun to hang around. Since, that has changed. He isn’t outta the water yet, but things are looking up. Anyway, I thought it could apply to all of us. I took out the things that were personalized, but left the rest just as it was. I hope any one of you can take this to heart.

Don’t assume you are only a burden in the world. As Phil. 2 says, we are all here to shine like stars, showing the love God has for all. So… DO IT! You have so much to offer, but your lack of confidence and personal attacks set you back quite a bit. You have to look for the good in all people, including yourself… I know that no one, including myself, looks at situations this way all the time. But you have to try. You can be a star— but you have to be willing, first. “Whether you think you can, or cannot, you are right.” I’m sure you saw me post that quote the other day. You need to tell yourself you are capable of anything. I am a firm believer in living life with a positive attitude. There have been studies that negativity is bad for your health, and the way you’re going, you’re going to be dead soon. That’s harsh, I know, but it’s very true. You are killing your spirit every time you put yourself down. Sure, there will be people who put you down, that’s the way life is. You have to be the one to tell yourself that you *are* worth everything in the world. “Live like the person you want to be.” Another quote I live by. I love quotes. But really, please, look at *every* situation as “how can I benefit from this?” —-EVERY situation has good to it. Even if it’s a bad situation. Sometimes I get upset cuz I’m running late… Then I stop and think “maybe God was preventing a car accident.”
 
That alone is one of the biggest reasons I don’t talk to you a whole lot, you are always so negative. I do consider you a friend, one of my best, because I know you will be there for me. But I can’t be the one to tell you that you’re okay, you’re worth it, whatever the case might be. That’s something you need to do. With you being negative, it makes you not a whole lot of fun to talk to. “If you don’t like something in your life, do what can be done to change it.”—-The negativity takes a toll on my mood, my day, my life. If you want to bring positive things, even in bad times, that’s fine. If someone dies, I’m not saying you need to be positive about that-although the Bible says we should, a funeral is a celebration of life, and what we should be upset about?…That person gets eternity before we do. I can’t even imagine what it’s gonna be like, but it’ll be pretty amazing. Please try to be positive. I do miss my friend, but I want the one that loves his life. You should. God created a beautiful place for us to live, and we get another day! Stop and look around you, this world is amazing.
 
Another quote: “You have to love yourself before anyone else can love you.” Everyone wants someone that values themselves. I value my life, every minute of it, I find myself thinking “wow, life is amazing.”…. It makes people wonder what is in my head that keeps me going, even when things aren’t so great. I smile 95% of the time I am awake, even if I don’t feel like it. There’s no sense in ruining someone else’s day with a frown, when it might make someone’s—anyone’s— day even a little bit brighter. How far is negativity going to get me? Value yourself. Make people fall in love with you. There’s a difference between confidence and ego. Confidence is from the inside, out. Ego stays inside. Shine to the world. Make the world wonder about you, why you’re so happy. Just be happy to be living.
 
Get some sleep. Don’t worry about the next day. “Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?” (Luke 12:25) Relax, God knows what He’s doing. When you are well rested, you feel better. Drink more water. That helps with the way you feel as well.
 
<3.

J*